I wasn’t originally planning on posting today because it’s been a rough day! I wanted to still pop in for a little update, though. Last night’s concert was amazing. I wanted to do a full-length post on it, but I think this will have to do. I don’t have too terribly many pictures, but I do have a few that I would love to share. And there are even a couple more on Brittany's camera that I can't wait to get from her! It was so awesome to hang out with everyone last night, and it was great to get out of the apartment. The show was really fun, but definitely not what I was expecting. I was having a cranky night after leaving school and it was hard to be excited for the show, but when we got to the venue and the opener was on, Janelle Monae, it was easy to get excited. Shortly thereafter, though, I started to get REALLY tired and about halfway through the show I was ready to go home. They were amazing, but I just couldn’t get into it as much as I would have liked!!
School, today, was pretty awful. I didn’t even want to go. Getting four hours of sleep is NOT conducive to a productive/tolerant day at West High. I mostly: checked email, prepared assignments, and graded papers. Holly pretty much did everything else, which I was really thankful for. I am almost ready to just shut down with this student teaching gig. It’s really difficult to stay positive/enthusiastic. I really cannot explain the dread that overcomes me some mornings when my alarm goes off. I can’t tell if this means that teaching isn’t for me, or if this is just the wrong setting for me. I’m going to stick it out, because I have to, but I am certainly not enjoying it. Oh, well. Only 12 weeks left! At least today one of my students told me I was having a good hair day, that was nice!
Later this week or weekend, check back for collaborative posts here and over at Blackbird Fly! All about my favorite teas and Morgan's prized mug collection. :) See you guys tomorrow!! xo Stephanie
as an outsider looking in on your situation with student teaching (and as a fellow student teacher), i don't think it's the wrong profession for you. rather, i think the mentors you have had have not been helpful in your growth as a student teacher. they have not let you just be a teacher. i think it will be a lot more tolerable when it is your classroom, you make the decisions, & you don't have anyone watching over your shoulder. it's really unfortunate that you have not had a good experience, but i am confident that you will be golden when you get your own classroom. <3
ReplyDeleteThanks, Chelsey! I keep telling myself that it can only get better after this, and I hope we're both right. It's hard to go to school every day and be excited, especially after Bob's visit yesterday. You always make me feel better, though :)
ReplyDeleteAhhhh what will happen with Shane??! I can't wait to see it. Hope school improves. Im proud of you for sticking with it!
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Aww thanks, Morgan!! That means a lot :)
ReplyDeleteI CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT ABOUT SHANE!! Omg. And Andy! Will they get together?! OH THE SUSPENSE.
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