Tuesday, August 10, 2010


It's been a rough time with friends lately, but the ones that I love the most have managed to stay super close to me, and I, to them, over the last few months. However, I have discovered that there are a few people in my life that are toxic at times. What do you do when someone in your family is not a good friend, and sometimes not a good person? It has become difficult to be around this person because I can often think of how much I do not want to be like them. I hate feeling this way about someone who will be in my life forever. I hate having negative feelings towards anything, really. I guess I just have to decide what is important to me and how I want to live my life, and if this person fits in that equation then they are welcome to join me. Right?

On the other hand, my best friend, Lauren, has come back into my life in a positive way after a few (or more than a few!) months of distance. We talked things through in a really productive way that I am absolutely proud of and I can't wait to get together more.

Secondly, after reading a few posts over at my friend Morgan's blog, Blackbird Fly, I have really started to be honest with myself about teaching. For about a year now, since we have been introduced into real classrooms settings, I have been questioning whether or not this is the right thing for me to do. This entry is the second place I have admitted this worry. I finally talked to Nick about it last night via text, so not as thoroughly as I would like. I realize that any profession comes with a certain amount of work that one might not look forward to, even if they are completely ecstatic about their path. However, I have come to dread going into a classroom. I have yet to discover whether this is because of the setting I have been introduced to (guest teacher rather than fixture) or because this really is the wrong decision for me. I have deduced that I will stick it out (at least through student teaching and maybe even my first year) to see if this is really what I want to do. My fears are similar to Morgan's, though. Have I wasted four years of my life and thousands and thousands of dollars? Let's hope not...

Anyways, on a more positive note, I am going to finally see Sex and the City 2 tonight.

I am a new fan of this series, and have recently watched all of the seasons and the first movie. Call it a guilty pleasure, but I live for girly, silly stories. I'll be back later to let you know what I thought!



  1. aww thanks so much for the shout out! I think a lot of people who are going into teaching are coming to terms with the same question that we have. It can be scary that's for sure. I am glad that you are sticking with it, that way you know at least that you tried it. Maybe you can move to England and become a Brit chick writer if the whole teaching thing does not work out. Either way, let me know if you ever need to talk about it!

  2. Hey pal! In regards to your concerns about not knowing for sure if teaching is the right thing for you, I have some advice. Remember my junior year of nursing when I was for sure going to open a bake shop instead of being a ridiculous nurse! Bah. I was so certain that nursing was not right for me- I hated going to work at MWH, I hated going to clinicals, and just basically hated nursing! And so did everyone in my class. But then I realized that what makes me most happy is helping out that certain patient, or when a patient thanks you for the care you have given them, or even just being there for a patient when they need someone the most. That is how I knew that this is the path for me, though of course we will always have our bad or not-so-good days. I remember times when you have said how excited you were to pick out things for your students to do, or perhaps weren't you happy when a student thanked you or even improved because of something you taught them? I think when you get your own students at a school that you actually want to work, it will be magnificent. You will find your niche and be so so happy, and will realize that this is the right path for you. And if that doesn't happen, well don't fret my dear pal, for you are only a young girl and you can do anything that you set your mind and heart to! I know that you wouldn't have picked education if it wasn't truly in your heart of hearts. I love you so so much and of course I am always here to talk about anything!
    <3 Lauren

  3. Thanks, Ladies :)

    Morgan, you don't know how many times I have thought of going to Europe. I even feel like maybe teaching would be better over there, but who knows. The grass is always greener, right?

    Lauren, thanks for your encouragement :) It helped a lot to think about the old days. But really that was before I actually got into a classroom! Do you think that I had pre judgments about what it would really be like? Anyhow. I hope it all works out. Thanks! <3


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