It's been a rough time with friends lately, but the ones that I love the most have managed to stay super close to me, and I, to them, over the last few months. However, I have discovered that there are a few people in my life that are toxic at times. What do you do when someone in your family is not a good friend, and sometimes not a good person? It has become difficult to be around this person because I can often think of how much I do not want to be like them. I hate feeling this way about someone who will be in my life forever. I hate having negative feelings towards anything, really. I guess I just have to decide what is important to me and how I want to live my life, and if this person fits in that equation then they are welcome to join me. Right?
On the other hand, my best friend, Lauren, has come back into my life in a positive way after a few (or more than a few!) months of distance. We talked things through in a really productive way that I am absolutely proud of and I can't wait to get together more.
Secondly, after reading a few posts over at my friend Morgan's blog, Blackbird Fly, I have really started to be honest with myself about teaching. For about a year now, since we have been introduced into real classrooms settings, I have been questioning whether or not this is the right thing for me to do. This entry is the second place I have admitted this worry. I finally talked to Nick about it last night via text, so not as thoroughly as I would like. I realize that any profession comes with a certain amount of work that one might not look forward to, even if they are completely ecstatic about their path. However, I have come to dread going into a classroom. I have yet to discover whether this is because of the setting I have been introduced to (guest teacher rather than fixture) or because this really is the wrong decision for me. I have deduced that I will stick it out (at least through student teaching and maybe even my first year) to see if this is really what I want to do. My fears are similar to Morgan's, though. Have I wasted four years of my life and thousands and thousands of dollars? Let's hope not...
Anyways, on a more positive note, I am going to finally see Sex and the City 2 tonight.
I am a new fan of this series, and have recently watched all of the seasons and the first movie. Call it a guilty pleasure, but I live for girly, silly stories. I'll be back later to let you know what I thought!