FIRSTLY, HELLO! to all of my new readers and followers. You guys make my days awesome! I love that you want to read what I write. Thank you thank you! <3
I just thought that I would point out that I didn't intend for every Monday to be a "Manic Monday" post. But it seems that since I had the first one, every Monday has been ridiculous in some way or another.
Today was absolutely terrible. I was told on Friday that I needed to do a PSAT practice crash course today and tomorrow (Monday and Tuesday). Never having taught this test before, I went in to school extra early today to make sure I could get some guidance from Holly. The first thing she says to me is that she is going home sick. Okay... I thought; I can handle this. Right? Apparently wrong. The sub (an IA at the school) came to sit in the room with me, since as an uncertified student teacher I am not allowed to facilitate a classroom alone. The kids were absolutely horrible. In each and every bell, they were horrible. The only bell that was remotely calm was my advanced kids, they love me still at least.
The IA interacted with the students way too much on a way-too-friendly of a level and only escalated their reactions to discipline and structure more. This, in turn, reflected on me. For the rest of the day I heard from other students "We don't like you. Where is Ms. Holly? Why are you so mean?" etc etc etc. I wanted to pull my hair out. I don't know what to do when things like this happen. Suggestions, kids?
Being in an urban, inner city school is hard work.
Then - I had a little uplifting chat with my mama, and I got home to my puppy.... This = instant smile on my face. PLUS so much love from my Twitter friends, and genuine love from my Facebook friends. My day is already looking up. Finally, I stopped at NPR's site to catch up a little and I saw this article: "Teachers Who Made a Difference: What's your story?"
This story gave me a little boost to make things better tomorrow. Hopefully there is one kid in one bell that listens, learns, appreciates me. That is worth it to me.
Thanks for hearing me vent, y'all.
**images via weheartit and NPR